dia curi hatiku (lagi)............?

oh no !
no....no.....no.....!
HE'S BACK!!!
voldemort! woops...!
no,it's not about voldemort
it's about someone else
someone from the past
someone who made me turn into a fool when i saw him,
someone who has the greatest smile ever!
and someone who makes MONKEY can't stop jumping and biting (what?!!)
hahhaha
no, of course not! i meant he gets crazily upset when i show my adoration to this person
um...well, easy Monkey, you're still the one in my heart
wuiwiwiwiii.............

and now he's back
after all this time i've been through
He's BACK! He's BACK!! He's BACK.........!!!
Oh my lord!
he's back and he steals my heart (again!)
all the memories,
his smile, his eyes, his kindness, his......
oh jeez......!!
i turn crazy again
i know i shouldn't be like this
but,but i can't help it!
i can't help my enthusiasm about this GUY!
Mm...hellooo....
he's damn gorgeous!
oh, sorry Monkey, you're much more gorgeous, of course
(just remember that,ok?)
what else can i say??
THIS GUY REALLY IS SOMETHING !!
(keep that in mind!)

now one thing that i should do is:
DON'T EVER LET MONKEY READ THIS!
Huwaaaaauuh............

memories

a few years have passed
a lot of things happened
so many people came and left
i can see how things changed in my life
how people around me transformed into many characters
even my family changed a bit
my friends all look a bit different to me
i can't tell
i can't tell why i'm still the same
nothing changed
everyone's moving forward,
walk around and keep moving
i'm the only one who stop
i'm the only one who stay still
i'm just watching them in silence
all i can hear is my own heartbeat
i can't feel what they feel
i can't move as fast as they do
i can't reach what they hold together
now i feel like i'm left behind
i cry out bitter tears
i realize one thing
i miss them
i miss all of them
i miss every single moment i spent with them
i wish that they'd come back
i miss everyone
i miss my friends,my family, i miss you-know-who
and even i miss.......i miss.........
um.....let's say my ex-spidey
yes, i miss spidey toobut i know he'll never come back again
spidey WILL NOT come back to me
i heard that he's got the new MJ

uh...somebody, somebody rescue me !!!

hi MJ !

i was watching spiderman last night (for million times,of course)
and i rememberred that i was always wanting to be like MJ
or to be 'her', i meant
isn't it fun having a superhero by your side?
having a superhuman who will always be there when you're in danger
someone who isn't even afraid risking his life to save you
well, he does this to everyone actually
MJ is not the only one whose life he saved
but still,she's the one he loves
it's just she doesn't know that

i was wondering, if i were MJ, who'll be my spidey then?
hahahaha.......
it's ridiculous, but there was someone came on my mind
someone......... who's just like Peter Parker
he looks weak,but he's special
you know that when you're looking at his eyes,he's not just an ordinary person
there's something great on him
i don't know what makes me think this way
it's just, i'm not really sure anymore
i'm not that sure if he's (still) my spidey, my spiderman

oh well,now that i'm not really sure anymore,
there's another question in my head
'why must MJ? why isn't it Lois Lane?
why must spiderman? what's wrong with Superman? or...Batman?'
is it about me who want to be MJ, or is it because i want him to be the SPIDERMAN??

aku disini

aku disini
di tempat dimana aku masih mencintai orang yang sama
disini
dimana aku menemukan belahan jiwaku yang baru dan mulai sulit mencari belahan jiwaku yang lama
disini
di waktu yang berbeda,keadaan yang berbeda,dengan orang-orang yang berbeda, dan aku yang tetap sama
disini
dimana aku menyadari bahwa aku mungkin bukanlah lagi penyebab seseorang merasa terluka
dimana aku merasa bahagia atasnya,
dimana aku ingin dia tahu bahwa akupun menyayanginya,hanya saja dengan cara yang berbeda

aku hanya tidak ingin menjadi alasan sakit hatinya selama ini
aku tau rasanya,
aku tau yang dia rasakan,
aku tau..........
akupun sama
untuk seseorang senaif dia,
tak pernah sedikit pun terbayang di benakku....

untuknya,
berbahagialah !
berbahagialah untukku,
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