flashback

anyone miss me?????
hohohohoho.........
sorry for being 'lost' for a moment
kinda busy about school
anyway..........
let's just post something here
what's the menu for today??

hmmmm.... today at school
something which was so damn,
well, terrible enough to ruin my day, happened.
just skip this.
this is so upsetting even until now
because what i wanna tell is about my past
yea, my past

today,still at school,
i spent about 2 or 3 hours chatting about past with my friend
well, i don't remember how it started,
but we just talked about my junior year at school,
about how stupid i was in 10 grade,
hahahahaa
everything was so funny to be remembered
seriously
what could be funnier than love story??
LOL
mine was so damn hilarious

yep! we mostly talked about love story
i still remember those days i spent just thinking 'bout my crush
everyday was all 'bout him,
and, ehemmm........
my friend also reminded me of someone who,
who......... umm,
how do i say this?
well, let's just say, adore me (sounds pathetic!)
it shocked me actually when she told me 'more' about him
i mean, all this time i never knew he did that
all this time i didn't realize that he loved me that much!
well, i knew, i really did know how he loved me,
but i never understood how he cared about me

hearing the story makes me realize that i actually didn't really understand him,
about his true feeling,
i just didn't care enough to see the other side of him
he was more than just 'a kind man' like i used to think
he was more than that

but God knows the best way for him
which is why i'm not by his side right now,
because he deserves better!
because i'm not the one that good enough for him

so, for you out there,
whenever you read this,
i'm 100 % sure you know that i'm talkin' 'bout YOU here,
i just wanna say,
you're once part of my life, and will always be
i will never ever forget about you though we're now apart,
i know someday we'll meet again and ready to tell our happy stories to each other
and your true love is the part of that happy story :)

goodbye for now, and sorry for all my mistakes
i love you, my friend.................................